Waiting Here For You

Lately I feel as if everything I do is not good enough compared to what I could be doing, everything I see reminds me of a need far greater than anything I could ever imagine, and everything I have pales in comparison to the joy that I could have by having nothing. Poverty and need in foreign countries affects my heart wayy too much. Seeing all the blog posts, tweets, facebook statuses, videos, pictures, and stories of mission projects occurring overseas just scratches the relentless itch I have to help. I hope I can one day. Christ has put this longing in my heart that I can't wait to be filled. Nothing can satisfy it. Not here. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my life and all the blessings God has placed in it. But at the end of the day, I can only be thankful that it's preparing me for the time when I can go. My ugly selfishness is often angry with the Lord, not trusting His timing and love for His children. Not just His poor, famished, seemingly God-forsaken children, but ALL of them. The ones I come in contact with every day. They need His love too, right? I can't seem to get that. So I struggle with patience and contentment, actively waiting on the Lord and anticipating the day when Christ decides I'm ready.

"Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality." Romans 12:11-13